" 12 And now, O Israel, what does the LORD your God ask of you but to fear the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul, 13 and to observe the LORD's commands and decrees that I am giving you today for your own good? ...
"The phone call made my stomach drop. The pre-cancerous cells in the test were very high and I needed surgery to remove them. I’m not sure what shocked me more; the phone call or the feelings the call invoked. I’ve been a Christian for many years. Why was I so afraid? Did that mean I had no faith?
As I not so patiently had to wait for a month to get the surgery over with, my mind went in many directions – and mostly to thoughts of my family. My husband does not share my faith, and I can’t tell you how many times over the past years that I’ve prayed for the Lord to either allow me to live until my son graduated, or bring my husband to the place where he could take over the spiritual leadership in the household. And I wondered now what His answer to that prayer would be.
This story has a happy ending in that the doctor said the biopsy showed “clear edges” so she believed I’d be fine and just had to have those follow-up appointments through the coming year. However, the month of waiting for that surgery was a lesson from the Lord in strengthening my faith. And most importantly, I feel this experience was a gift from the Lord. I will now be able to better understand the fear that others feel in this kind of experience and will be able to better encourage them.
Where was my faith? It was right where I left it. It was ok to be afraid and for this independent person to become vulnerable and seek support. I was used to being strong and helping others, and never wanting encouragement and support for myself. Maybe that is what the Lord also wanted to teach me. I learned to be humble and that I really was vulnerable and shouldn't be so independent.
If you are going through a time of the unknown and fear because you are waiting for surgery for an illness, I encourage you to use this time to accept the things the Lord will be teaching you. Keep seeking the Lord and pray. Also, it’s important to allow people to minister to you right now. It’s ok to be afraid. I learned it’s what I did with that fear that was important. God loves you and wants you to lean on Him now. It’s time to "let go now, and let God" during this time.
Psalm 6:2 Have mercy on me and be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am weak (faint and withered away); O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled."
Lincoln Brewster - Whom Shall I Fear (with Kari Jobe)
"This song is from Lincoln's album "Real Life". Written by Lincoln and Mia Fieldes (Hillsong). Based on Psalm 27:1. What a treat to have Kari Jobe from Dallas accompany him. Wow! Lincoln has a knack for adding interesting twists to his recordings. Like having his kids at the end of "God You Reign" and having his son's ultrasound heartbeat in "Power Of Your Name" and having his son read from Isaiah 40 in "Everlasting God". In this one he patched in Kari's song "You Are For Me" at the end. Pretty cool. Lincoln is the worship leader at Bayside Church in Granite Bay, about 10 miles from my house. Cool for me! Fabulous guitar interlude by Lincoln in the middle. He's truly a virtuoso."
35That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, "Let us go over to the other side." 36Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?"
39He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
40He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
41They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!"